Depression Poem

How I Feel

© Wendy Nikole
Does anyone know
How I feel?
Feeling so alone
And so empty
My eyes are blank and my smile is fake
You can't just read me
You just have to know me
The tears that escape me
As I remember all the things
That went wrong
Or what it could of been like
On the outside I smile
On the inside I feel so dead to the world
Like I'm invisible
Not worth knowing
Useless and pointless
I lay awake for hours on end
Wishing everything away
I ask god
Why me?
Why do I have to suffer
For someone else's stupidity
God
What am I to you?
Someone you can toy around with
Someone you can hurt?
Well guess what God
I'm done!
I just want to disappear
And cry
Like spurting blood
Why is it I can bleed to death
But I can't cry to death?
I'm trying so hard
To gain control
Over what was once mine
My life
I feel like I don't matter
I feel like I'm better off dead
Better off not existing
Better off without love...

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Published: Feb 2010
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  1. Jullian, Mount Airy NC Submitted on Wednesday, March 03, 2010

    I loved it :) really it really did touch me a lot

  2. Crystal Galveston Submitted on Tuesday, April 06, 2010

    I like this poem because it really express how I feel sometimes inside and out and it just really touch me

  3. Lexi Submitted on Saturday, June 12, 2010

    my name is lexi....I loved this poem it touched me a lot! ... I... I just the other night actually did a similar thing to the lay there for hours asking God why me? ... that made me cry so hard... this expresses how I feel.. thank you for putting it into words

  4. Polly Submitted on Thursday, June 24, 2010

    I just loved it thoroughly... its just exactly how I feel everyday...

  5. Crystalmoon X Submitted on Thursday, August 19, 2010

    All the poems I read on here really touch me. Just hang on in there and one day you'll find what you're looking for. Trust me. ;)

  6. DeAnna Submitted on Friday, October 15, 2010

    Girl, I know exactly how you feel. I used to be depressed and I attempted to end my life twice. but I got out of it you can to, trust me you'll get out of it.
    Only time can heal pain and it took me over 2 years, I promise it will be okay. You can do it, just like I did. :)
    -DeAnnaa:)

  7. Arian Submitted on Thursday, December 09, 2010

    I know how you feel it really touched me I feel the same way my heart is broke with and it feels like I have no way to heal it. It's been 5 months and I'm still stuck in the same place all I wish for is to get the old me back. . although I feel I'm not complete without him. I want the old arie back.

  8. Sadgirlwantsfrnds Submitted on Tuesday, December 14, 2010

    OK so I am dealing with depression and I also wonder why god had too chose me. and also I sympathize with all the people who are in the same situation.

  9. Leah Hopkins Submitted on Friday, January 13, 2012

    This really touched my thanks for sharing it I am 13 and a lot of the time I ask god why he has done what he has done to me but just hang in there he has a plan for everyone including you

  10. Greensboro,Nc Submitted on Wednesday, June 05, 2013

    I'm 13 years old and I have wanted to end my life many many times but God has seen me through it all, and I know he will see you through it too.

  11. Marjorie Submitted on Sunday, September 22, 2013

    I feel exactly like this...I am so blessed t have found this site....it let's you express yourself and know other people do care and some even suffer the same darkness. Thank you so much for sharing this beautiful, touching, inspiring poem and know that you are cared about :)

  12. Alexis, CT Submitted on Tuesday, January 21, 2014

    Hi I'm Alexis,

    I have tried to commit suicide because no one really cared about me unless it was me who was doing the chores. I am still currently depressed, but no longer trying to commit suicide. Guess what Wendy? You can fight this depression. I am on your side. *hugs*

  13. Adrianna-Marie Gonzalez, CT Submitted on Sunday, February 09, 2014

    Halo! I'm Adrianna-Marie Gonzalez Cross Hernandez. I am 14 years old. I can feel the same thing you are Wendy. I have been diagnosed with depression at the age of 7. I then at the age of 10 started sneaking knives into my bedroom and cut every inch of my skin from arms to toes. No one knew until one day my mother was going thru my things and found 4 different knife types. I stopped cutting. I started the habit of not eating for days at a time. I soon stopped that when I got very ill. The illness went away. I sat in my room on the weekends and say to God why me? Now to this day I am looking back to what you wrote and I told myself that I was put into the same exact position you were put in. I want you to know that I will always be there for you!

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