Hurting Poem

Hard times and hard struggles is what happens in life But sometimes it's just too much to continue.

Breaking Down, Giving In, Giving Up

© Anonymous
I've tried. Time and time again, I've tried.

To not cut, to not be weak, to not fall into temptations.

You single handily abolished whatever pieces of my heart was left.

You see the struggles I've been through. You still leave me, like I'm nothing.

I'm sorry for being weak. I'm sorry for existing. I'm sorry for loving you. I'm sorry for you having to love me. I'm sorry about the struggles I put you through. But I'm most sorry for, is wasting your time.

I'm sorry I apologize too much.

I'm sorry that I can't live up to expectations.

I'm sorry I broke down.

I tried to hold out, to be strong. I physically and mentally can't.

I'm sorry I can't be the ideal perfect girl, everybody makes me out to seem.

I'm sorry you can see scars. But that's the only thing beautiful about me.

I've lost total control. Don't know where or how to start.

Don't know if I want to start. Maybe I should just give up

I cry too much. Too many tears in only a short time.

I'm sorry I couldn't put my fake smile on. I'm sorry I can't find it anymore.

However, what I'm sorry for the most, I'm sorry for affecting you. Everyone. I'm sorry for getting in your heart and in your head.

And once again, I'm sorry for apologizing so much.

Some will say that suicide or cutting is selfish. Selfish for the loved ones.

Isn't it selfish for the loved ones to continue to let the person continuing through life in so much pain?

I'm not committing suicide, but I just might. Too many thoughts, too many unseen cuts the human eye.

That's why I'm breaking down, giving in, and giving up.

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Published: Oct 2012
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  1. Breanna, Tucson Arizona Submitted on Friday, November 16, 2012

    I'm 14 and I am suicidal.. I want it to be over but my friends say no. My mom sent me to a mental hospital which only made things worse. I'm in love with my best friend and she knows. She says she isn't bi anymore.. I just don't know what to do anymore... I don't want to give up because if I give up on life.. I give up on us..

  2. Leon, Houston, Tx Submitted on Wednesday, April 17, 2013

    Wow I'm guessing your around 15 now. I hope you didn't give up on life when you have so much of it to live. I'm 22 and I've had a lot of hardships to overcome myself. I lost grandfather at 13, then I lost my brother to 13 gun shots at 17, then I lost my home the following year. Through it all I'm in college and running track. I will graduate in a year with my bachelors degree and two minor degrees. DON'T GIVE UP. Forget not giving up for a female. Don't give up for you! God loves you and I love you even though I never met you. We are all children of God.

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